It Had To Be You

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Come Round Soon

Overreacting?
Misinterpretation?
Confused.

don't know, don't know. wish i did. somehow.

don't ask, cause I WON'T TELL YOU! mwahaha. jk .. maybe in a year.
and guessing is bad. because you probably won't get it. :D

Wanna Be Starting Something

So this is how last week went ..

*Okay guys, well ummm when I was uploaded the pictures onto my computer I had problems with uploading the videos, and it took hella long, so I forgot to put the IHOP pictures into a folder and so when I was done with the videos I deleted everything from the camera. THEN, a few hours later when I wanted to blog and show pictures, I was like oh buttfcuk, THEY'RE GONE. Yeahh .. extraaaa sorry, please DON'T KILL ME =(

But anyways I feel like I've been on an overload with something. Maybe it all seems to be going wrong because it's been alot over the past week. I think I just need time to myself to sort everything out.

Sometimes I wish I knew exactly what I wanted. I don't know if I should go along with something or keep my guard up thinking every guy isn't worthy because they're all jerks. Or if the direction I'm taking friendships is right and won't end up like the friendships I had with Jonelle or Vanessa. And also, SCHOOL. I know I'm not doing the best I possibly can and I'm going to try, but its hard because no matter what, something is going to top the other and its definitely hard to balance everything. Highschool is so bittersweet. Damnit.

And hella things are coming up ..

U.S. History Research Project

Digital Video Draft

President's Week Break

FBLA Bay Section Conference

FBLA State Conference

AP tests

Registering for SATs in May

It's seriously crunch time, no matter what I have to sacrifice. When I have the free time, I'll use it for other purposes other than school. Blahhhh.

Gravity (Live)

Today's the beginning of fiesta weekend! Muy emocianado. :) I have so much to do today, but it will all be worth it. Forserious.

So as I was bored at home when my family was in Reno and as I see all my friends going through problems involving the opposite sex, I look back at 2006-2007. How HE made it difficult for me to get to where I wanted to be. I mean, I still got some somewhere, like AP English and a better understanding of things, but still I wanted to do so much more. Why did it take me months to get over my foolishness and grow up? I look back at what we had as memories, but I can say that I no longer miss them or want them again, especially with him. But because of him, I think I put my guard up even higher than it was before. I'm too scared to get hurt again. That was the first time ever getting really hurt and I don't want to go through that again. Ack, whatev whatev. Moving on from him, from the bad past, and looking foward. But it sucks that now he goes to school with my friends from TN. wtF?

Just a random picture of TSSS girls. Finally got those homestudio pictures from Nancy's birthday. Love 'em.

The Light

Well since I'm all by myself at home which really totally EXTREMELY sucks, so I guess I'll blog about my unexciting life.

Fcuk, I'm scared. Whyyy did we have to watch those scary movies at Julia's house?!?

After a whole week I still do not want to present our english rhetoric. I'm just not feeling in the mood to, but i guess I gotta get it over with somehow. I just have my own nervousness problems when presenting. I start studdering, turn really red, forget everything I'm going to say, oh god, its terrible to think about it.

Fresh Start

Wow it's 2008 already. For some reason it feels like 2005 was just last year or something. I think I remember those years more than I actually remember 2006 and 2007. Weird. But it's that time where everyone including me will say its time for a fresh start and better take on things that I didn't succeed much in during 07. A lot of my resolutions this year deal with health and exercise. Last year it was money, but that didn't work out too well. I was broke for half of the year. This year, I am DETERMINED to get a job. DETERMINED!

Well break will be ending soon. Time to go back to school. Bleh. Time to go back to bitching teachers, gangster teens, and girls who act like their 20 or some shit. Seriously, you're still in high school, all that sex and drugs can wait. Ruin your life later. Go act hard and whatever you think is "mature" somewhere else. This is why I want to move.

Today the weather was crazy! I woke up at freakin' 4 in the MORNING because the wind was shaking the house and I could hear it whistling through my windows. And plus the rain ruined my plans for today which were really FUN plans, but now is gone. boo.