Colors

Wow I haven't blogged in almost two weeks. Oh well, here I am now. Unable to go to sleep and its past my bedtime. Weaksauce.

Let me start with last friday. So my great friends from the pack surprised me with a cake and cupcakes which equals me suffering the entire day with them. My muscles were burning! Then afterschool, went to a short 09 meeting. AND THEN, suddenly, we're in the backhall & Julia comes behind me and blindfolds me! So then they tortured me even more than day until we got to the "mysterious place" which was Marie Callendars. Damn that food was baaamb. Goodshit. Then we just chilled at the mall and Berna's for awhile before I had to leave.

Next day=BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY!
When I woke up, it didn't feel like my birthday. But whatev, went to Todai to get a free lunch! Then headed over to the cemetery and then some ... done. Hah. day was ruined, but its not like it hasn't been before ..

Sunday = DIANNE'S BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY!
Well woke up to a shitty morning. Then just did nothing because I felt like shit. Then Dianne's mom called me and asked to come over to celebrate. So I get there kind of early and the girls came around 7.

yeah lazy, finish later

It's Like That

I am so glad that testing for AP is over with. This week has been test after test. Now all I have to worry about is possibly trying out for AP Gov/Econ and SAT IIs. I'm planning on taking subjects lit and u.s. history. *Note to self - Buy books soon.

I also had my green hat interview yesterday. Pretty scary, but I got through it. Now I'm just hopeful I get in. :)

Anyways,
Understand before you Judge. Research before you Conclude.
It's the end of the year, and I'm tired. Tired of hearing false rumors or things said. Tired of cliques. Tired of it alllll. I was angry before, but now I'm just sick of it. Something just showed us all that we don't have time to fight. No time to judge eachother. Don't connect me to an assumption when you don't even know the reason for my actions. Okay, I went because I know the pain that they feel. And it feels good to know that people who may not have even known the person personally, actually care enough to show their sympathy. It really hit home when I went, but I'm the type of person who can't fully let my feelings out. Only when I'll alone. Right now, I'm not concerned with who knows and making a whole gang of people go against whoever. I just want it to stop. Go beyond middleschool thinking. We're about to be SENIORS. This is kind of like a message to all the 09'ers. Really, I'm not pointing fingers at anyone. Ahhhh jeez. This is definitely not what I wanted to happen during the last few weeks of school. I think it's time I go to the cemetery, alone.

One sweet day.

Does He Know

Luckily I don't have a lot of homework today, so I guess I'll blog.

Since summer is inching closer, I feel that the drama that surrounds me or even that I'm involved in, should be forgotten. What will it matter in 4 weeks? You won't be seeing these people everyday for almost 3 months. So for now I'm just going with the flow with whatever choices I make. Summer, I've missed you and I'm excited to see you again.

I'm in desperate need of a job right now. Senior year, is the year I will go broke. Seriously okay theres SAT, ACT, FBLA events, prom, winterball, senior events, going out with friends, & now a debut. Aiya. PLUS I want to save up for college to help out my mom.

Then there's the issue of college. Already I'm totally freaking out! I would really like to go to a southern california UC or CSU, but there's problems with money and leaving my mom alone. Although, it would be nice to get away from this house, I'm scared to leave my mom alone. We're all eachother has. Corny, but it's true.

Whatever, stress is out the door and fun is coming in. WOO! Lol.

Miguel's bonfire was last saturday. Pretty damn fun for a first time bonfire go-er. Pics ...