Falling

So I'm procrastinating on studying for the SAT subject tests I'm taking this Saturday. It's okay because I have plenty of time this week.

I was reading Berna's blog about making a list of all or a few of the things I hate/dislike and I decided I'm going to make one too. Haha.

I hate school. I hate that I'm not naturally smart like other people. I hate that I'm not satisfied with my SAT scores. I hate that I was a fool during sophomore year. I hate that I have so many regrets. I hate how I can never find the right one. I hate that my dad is gone. I hate the fact that memories of him are slowly drifting away. I hate being emo about it. I hate it when people think their problems are always the worst. I hate when people compete to see who has it worst. I hate that we always have to please you. I hate girls who talk about themselves like they're some kind of higher person. I hate girls who say they hate all girls. I hate how there's no effort in the friendship. I hate chemistry. I hate extreme perverts. I hate people who think they're the cutest thing in the world. I hate being an only child. I hate that I only had 7 memorable years with my dad. I hate how its been 7 years since he passed. I hate seeing my mom miserable. I hate how I'm a factor in her misery. I hate my uncle. I hate being underestimated, alot. I fucking hate boppers. I hate Daly City and its ugliness. I hate the vibe here. I hate how I don't think sometimes before I speak. I hate that I feel like a part of me is missing and not knowing what is missing. I hate so much hate.

Yeah, there's my list. Did I beat Berna? Idk. It's probably not all of it, but if I were to make a list of all the things I love/like it would definitely be longer.

Okay, I guess I should start studying.