Take A Breath

Another day that I wake up at 6:45 to drop my mom off at BART just so I can take the car. I seriously cannot wait until my cousin gives me her car because having only one car and two licensed drivers just doesn't work.

School hasn't even started yet and I'm slightly starting to feel the stress of everything. I have green hat trainings, 09 meetings, cotillion practices, summer reading, and SAT studying (which I haven't started on because I get so lazy), then there's also the hanging out that MUST BE DONE before summer is over. Gahhh. I told my mom all of this and her response was "You're not supposed to have fun." Uhh yeah okay. I already have no fun at home every single day of the year. I can barely ever bring friends over because of HIM, I can't freely go into the living room to watch tv or the kitchen to make my own food. Even downstairs! HE gets downstairs! And you know what he does with it, destroy it. That was supposed to be the entertainment room. This house fucking sucks. It was supposed to be different from the condo, but its exactly the same just more places I can't go! That's the reason I go out so much because I hate being at home. I also partially blame it for the reason I've gained so much weight these past years. All I do is come home, eat, and stay in my bedroom. Nothing else.

But anyways, enough 'not family just people living in my house' drama.

At noon, the Burning Up cd leaks on mtv! Too bad I won't be online to listen to it. It's okay, I'll probably be listening to it for days until I get my cd :) Nick and Selena are obviously dating. Even though I'm incredibly jealous, I hope they last longer than him and Miley. Oh gosh, what am I saying. Lame moment. Ha.